It’s been 1 month, 1 week and for days since my second year of college started. And for that little period of time it causes a lot of burdensome stress and sleepless nights. I never expected this kind of rush to happen so quick. Summing up all the pressure I’ve been through in just a little period of time is equivalent to the pressure I had in a one whole semester last year. The subject progression is fast, new “alienated” words are introduced and break time is scarce. I’m running low on ATP’s.
For someone as lazy as me, the pressure is reaching to the core. I just can’t help myself but complain. Stress is bad for the health. I definitely agree to that! I view life as simple as it can be. But everyday I go to school it’s just getting complicated. My spending gets in the way at times too. Grrrrr. Sometimes, I wish I’m a billionaire smiling next to Oprah and the queen. Anyways, I can’t be billionaire and I don’t want to have a lot that is something considered to be the root of all evil. So alphabetically speaking I’m b-r-o-k-e. Unlike last year, I can save money behind. Here in Cebu there’s this popular disturbing issue about people randomly injecting H.I.V viruses with the use of syringe or even just needles and in some cases, putting drops of the virus in catsup containers everywhere. There are a lot of reports that “H.I.V rangers” rides on jeepneys and injects the virus randomly to an innocent passenger. WTH?! Samoka that life oy. My cousin Shantal and I are paranoid by the idea. We don’t want to become a victim. Who in the right mind would? Our life is precious to just waste it to a stupid life taker freak who I don’t even know. Here’s a catch, we can escape from this life threatening issue by not riding the jeep and by taking the taxi to and from the school everyday. It may be a good solution but it’s causing us more expenses. I can’t ask my mom for an allowance increase of course. It’s too much to ask and I don’t want to ask for more. That’s why sacrifices exist in this world. The H.I.V issue eventually fades and we can ride the jeepney again. It’s human nature to like riding the taxi everyday than to take the jeep. We kinda get used to the riding of the taxi. It’s comfortable and air conditioned. And the problem started, we’re not paranoid anymore but we’re lazy much now. HA-HA :))
Amidst all the pressure, fatigue and the complaining, it doesn’t mean I’m giving up. I will never ever reach to the point that I’ll be regretting taking up Bachelor of Science in Occupational Therapy. I will finish this and I will be living a life that I wanted. But for now, I’ll go back to complaining. I’m in a serious relationship with my studies and it’s complicated. Very complicated to ignore and very complicated to understand fully. I’m neither the genius-type nor the slowest-type. I’m kinda the average type of student. I can’t understand and analyze facts and problems in one go and I really hate mathematics! I think my brain is about to explode right now. I need to memorize every detail of the muscles and bone and their specific location and function. I need to memorize new medical terminologies; I need to do chemical experiments(which is easy but sometimes burdensome because of the fact I’m the leader of the group and one of my members is not cooperating plus I don’t really want to lead. I'm more like an avid follower).Also I need to go swimming once a week in the school pool because of PE 13!(Note: I do like swimming but not this kind of swimming wherein there’s a lot of rules!!)
I’m this wimpy kid(or lady) who wants to enjoy life simply but it’s actually depressing to know that I’m growing up and everything changes in a blink of an eye. I’ll be out of my mind pretty soon. I cannot take my studies for granted because I made a promise to my parents who sacrificed a lot to give me excellent education. I don’t want to disappoint and break there hearts so I need to stick to that promise even though I had a brain like mine. I put a lot of effort in order to attain good grades but sometimes I just can’t focus. I sometimes forget reasons and let my laziness rule my body. Oh come on, how can I change this?! I’m desperate to change but next thing I know I’m back to my old self doing nonsense. Zzzzzzz. My life is indeed like a weather, predictable yet unpredictable. Get it. Blah-blah-blah. I need to put an ending to this cause I know you already get the whole point of this entry.
Let me tell you this one time, I may have a brain like mine and life may get so serious for me to handle but I’m not weak. I’m strong and someday soon I can go outside my comfort zone with the help of myself only. ;)
Aibi
